Loving Too Hard

I'm in love with someone else The words he spoke as I begged God to help Tell her you're just a musical potential The love you thought we shared was fiction-able We never were to her but let me love you after you lie I wanna hold you close & never say goodbye I'm confused but I won't tell you that Let me take it out that knife I placed in your back Trust me, love me , hold me & I swear But I promise I'll answer the phone for her as if you weren't there Look I love you but this is the person I want I want to string you along & bear the pain I taunt I faint, quicked but shh it's a spiritual rise Please don't leave come back who will I use when you say goodbye? I want your body but I tell you I just want you, plain Fuck your feelings where were they sept of 12' you played games I wanted you , or so I wants you to believe I'm a man so I have to be this way u have to have options don't leave I buy you tools to achieve don't you see I care But when my lover asked I was never there I do me . Don't question just respect it Reality kicked in when first person became me I don't love me , I'm just being selfish and greedy I consume my time so that I'll be blind And continue to walk in this deficit line Am I lying? No, you're only a victim if you continue Let him go, it's obvious he doesn't care what you've been through What can you offer? Where can we go? What do you have to give me? I have nothing I will gain but for now I lost it all completely Yet I'm the young minded soul Who wants someone to hold Rather than fancy dates & gold I'm the lost soul who'd cater to you as if you were The Lord himself But that's where God said to hell I'm a jealous God put no man before me Let her see his face , will she still love thee'? Yet rebelliously she did because of whom he represented God said enough Shanice , him I will diminish .. You've lost him because you loved too hard Next time play it right , use more cards I stepped into your shoes & then told you my situation Can you see the battle I've fought ? No fabrication