Before I Do (Part I)

As the preacher read his script, I could hear my heartbeat and the sweat on my palms could drip if this man who I’d be sharing last names with smiled one more time. That smile, my God that smile I love it so much. Hearing Pastor Jeffery state for better or worse, I didn’t have to think of it. There was no thought before I do, Kevin knew finances, loves kids, well dressed and a man of God meaning he’s destined for greatness. I met Kevin in an elevator to my clinical, he wore a suit and tie and my supervising Doctor was actually his best friend. Doctor Clay didn’t like the thought of his best friend being interested into a pre-med student especially of his. Somehow Kevin convinced Doctor Clay he wouldn’t have me stray from my assignments, and today my old supervising Doctor was now the best man at my wedding and I no longer had to call him “Doctor Clay”, I now called him Christopher or Clayton. Before Kevin stated his I do, he glared at me as a tear formed and it seemed like all the possibilities ran through his mind. Kevin formed his lips and said “I Do”, in all honesty I felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest and it was lifted, as I returned the “I Do”. After the reception Kevin and I met up with some of our friends, we were no longer the single ones in the group. There was Alicia & Samantha Bryant, Nadia & Christopher Clayton, Bria & Lenard Harris and finally Katrina & Matthew Thomas. We all met somehow in Memorial Hospital. I felt like life had just begun basking in the imaginary glitter of my name becoming something new, Amber Guillory. It has a ring to it, as we are making the final toast I thank our friends for joining us on our special day. I stated it would be like unicorns and rainbows some days and at worst I would be like the waitress getting your order wrong at lunch. Nadia began crying and Chris held her so close. I prayed Kevin and I could be as strong as them. Little did I know to expect such disappointment? Marriage wasn’t what my “friends” prepped me for. They got me ready for the wedding which I thought was hard but in reality it was a piece of cake compared to the next level. Usually our brunches would discuss what dress we’d be wearing and how excited we were to see how the wedding would turn out. Now it was about the problems they had and how it began to get worse. Nadia was even to the point of saying she wanted a divorce and being newly married I just sat in shock. My thoughts were, could it really be that bad or could you be an adult and tell your significant other what’s bothering you. I was scared to ask Nadia the problem, but just because I didn’t ask didn’t mean it didn’t come out at the wrong time. (To Be Continued)